| Oct. 14th, 2005 @ 03:01 am I am stupid! |
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It is 3pm and I just get back from clubing which is suppose to be cool.
My day started with watching TV in my bed and then cleaning my apartment and I took a long bath. Then I moved downtown to do some shopping but didnt buy anything because I need to save money up for going to slovakia, hungary, Prague and Vienne at the end of the month. Plus nothing fits me well because summer is not the best moment to be on diet, well I am now. Then I saw Julien and we went to celine's apartment where I had a dinner with her. Then we met some Ilhan and Florent to go in a bar where you drink fruit coktails and smoke nargile ou chicha ( i dont know the work in english, it is from marroco and tunisia). it was empty so we went to an other bar where no one was and drink some coktails. We moved in an other bar less preppy and I really prefer the first one but whatever we drank a really good coktail with fresh "fraise" and vodka. it was delicious but I didnt feel confortable in that bar...
At midnight we decided to go clubing even if I was tired so Florent, Ilhan and I went to a club called "the colors". I felt bad first because I was in jean and polo and basket (not an usual outfit for me when I club!). But after a time there, I was boring and think about something, my two friends are "handsome" and have "great bodies" and some girls danced with them and I was kind of alone on the dancefloor! Then I realise how lame I am. My friends were dressed like me even worst I guess and they danced with girls, what the aim of clothes? I spent around 10 years thinking about my shoes, my clothes, my sunglasses... and think of it, who dances alone ? who doesnt have anyone who wanna go out with him ? IT IS ME! But actually since when clothes make you look better and make you have someone in your life ? One part of my life just burst out tonight. and now I even think that being well dressed and preppy and stuff doesnt do everything, the most important part is a cute face, a cute body then clothes can help you but obviously I only have clothes... and when you think of it what clothes are ? just nothing. In one year they wont be fashion and you wont wear them and give them for poor people. I am lame, I suck!
ok that's the way I feel right now, I should sleep and see how it is going tomorrow... |
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